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Progression of a Mama's Tragedy...

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       As I stand here and place my daughters "birth certificate" in a frame, so many questions arise.... Were the Operating Room staff quiet and somnolent while they removed my baby girl from my body? Were they talking about their normal daily life, making plans for that evening, or were they providing moments of silence for the tiny little one that never made it. There is no way to prevent these thoughts, avoid them or know they are oncoming; its the natural progression of tragedy I guess....       Poor little Kennedy Kristine, never had a chance to see the world, but is now with her three brothers who were also gone too soon. HELLP syndrome- that is what they said is caused our little girl to be forced into the world too soon. I was 18 weeks pregnant when I started having severe heartburn, nausea, fevers, chills and abdominal pain. I went to our rural hospital where they found my liver enzymes to be 3x the normal limit but they were unsure the ...
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Where do I begin?

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           Our machines may have made an error, and we will need to send her for more testing to re-draw and repeat the test, but there is a chance your daughter either has some sort of blood disorder, or she has Leukemia, but we will not know until you take her to Children's Hospital tomorrow morning.....     As a 10 year old child, I sat and stared at the nurse and my Mom and asked "what's leukemia?". The nurse leans over and states; "oh honey, its a type of cancer". My mind went blank, and I do remember being more upset and scared for my mom than for myself. She sobbed herself to sleep, and I will never forget hearing her cry all night. I remember my sister and I joking that I might have to wear a helmet so I dont hit my head and have  bleeding. I didn't really understand what was going on. The next morning we got up early, drove all the way across town, met my Dad in the main lobby, and when we went up the elevator, th...
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